Yes, I’m continuing with NF Real Music titles. LOL. Can you hold me is a great song tho – just FYI.

So updates. I am cancer free – Thank you sweet Lord Jesus! I am having a little more problems in another area – but I’m confident it’ll be fine. I’m seeing a specialist, Lord willing sometime soon, to go over everything. There are more things to talk of but I cant…sorry to be so secretive….but my life. I share what I want right?

With regards to all this – plus the issues my child has been having – I’ve been doing good. Not depressed or spiraling or anything, so thankful for that. 

BUT. There’s always a “but” isn’t there?

This past weekend I almost had a complete meltdown at church. To the point I ran out of service and my husband chased after me to take me home.

Sigh.

You know………………………I dont even know what to say about that. But, I’m tettering right now. Granted it is my meds time and I do tend to fracture a little at this time – but I’m trying.

Did I tell you about my pyrformis syndrome? Well, they gave me an X-ray and found that I have significant degeneration of the lower lumbar area. My workouts have been limited to the elliptical (which I might hafta cut back on…my back was clicking this morning doing it) and yoga. I gained 6lbs…but I think that has more to do with the emotional eating I’ve been doing. 

I think I’m back on track but only the Lord knows. 

Ya know as a Christian when we go through issues like this, we are taught to look at our lives and see what God is trying to show us. Well, I think its trust. You see as someone with an anxiety disorder – its hard for me to trust. Trust God, trust my husband, trust my family, trust my friends. Just trust.

Sad right?

But I’m trying to trust!

And maybe that’s what God is trying to teach me. I’ve been praying about it and I really think that’s what it is. Trust. I’m learning Lord. I’m learning.

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