i-will-beat-herSo if you follow me on instagram or twitter – you know the past couple of days have been REALLY hard for me. Basically – anxiety and bipolar suck.

Anyways, so today I was sufficiently beat….verging on falling into the magenta-ey abyss when I tried on my jean jacket.

Now lemme tell you about this jean jacket. I bought it when my husband and I were kidless. It was a little tight and I barely could close it. So I thought screw it – I don’t need to close it, its for spring right?

Well, fast forward to after kids (think about 2 years ago) and the jacket fit even less. I hardly wore it because my arms just didn’t fit in it.

Then last year? I was able to button up the jacket half way….cant find the pic. But I was so happy. I’ll never forget that.

Then? Today.

Boom baby.


All the way up!!!!!

The jacket is 18/20 and its big!! Its comfortable. I feel like a woman again.

I know, I know, I shouldn’t base my identity on my weight – but thats what its always been. I was 32o lbs. Thats all people saw about me. Its gonna take time to feel the way God wants me to feel – know what I mean?

I got some ways to go but thank you Jesus for Non-Scale Victories.

Lets talk:




Snapchat: fitjesstorres


Starting weight: 315

Current weight: 240.6

Goal weight: 200 – I’m reaching for it but honestly I’ll be happy with anything below 230

Dietary plans: counting calories and low carb; not eating after dinner, working out on an empty stomach

Workout plan: walking, 22 Minute Hard Corps, yoga, Insanity Max:30

Reason for: to be healthy and happy and there for my kids