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Taken over a year ago

There are many things I’m learning on this weight loss journey.

Some good, some bad but always I’m learning. Mostly just learning about myself (therein lies the bad most of the time). Like when I had that (kind of) panic attack because I couldn’t emotionally eat after someone didn’t notice my weight loss?

I know – pretty petty and selfish of me.

Wait is it selfish? Yeah I guess so because I wanted all the attention.

But I’ve been learning some other things too. Like its not about the scale – though it is cool to see the scale move.

Which btw – I am finally below the 300 mark…praise the good Lord!

But back to what I was saying – its not about the scale; its about the change. The good choices that you make, the healthy things that you eat, all that jazz. Its about that. God said our body is a holy temple and we should treat it that way (Major paraphrasing here), I haven’t been. I’ve been selfish and childish – eating what I wanted when I wanted. I was unhappy (not depressed – thats something else), I was blaming everything and everyone for my problems.

It was not pretty. But now – I’ve seen that the things I have changed? Have made me happier – more giving. Its no longer about me but about God and my family and what I can do for them.

I’m learning still but I’m cherishing the things I’ve learned so far.

Photo on 1-4-16 at 9.54 AM

 

Goals…

Current weight: 299

Goal weight: 200 – I’m reaching for it but honestly I’ll be happy with anything below 230

Dietary plans: counting calories and low carb/low fat diet; not eating after dinner, working out on an empty stomach

Workout plan: walking, exercise bicycle, yoga, and Slim in 6 program

Reason for: to be healthy and happy and there for my kids

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