So, yesterday I didn’t workout. My kids and I went to visit some people.

IMG_0716Ok, I did yoga and rode the bike for an hour – but it didn’t feel like I did enough. What can I say? I’m addicted.

So anyways, I did awesomely! I was tempted and enticed to cheat but I didn’t! I stood to my guns, it was great. That is until we left.

Ya see I realized that the people didn’t comment on my weight loss. I was crushed. I kept thinking that because they didn’t say anything I obviously hadn’t lost the weight I thought  I did.

It got me to a point where I almost ate a bag of chips. But I didn’t, I pushed through the emotional eating but dude it was weird. Like it felt like I was having a panic attack because I wasn’t eating.

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Then I got encouraged by my coach and my cousin. Which made me think: Why do I need people to acknowledge my weight loss? I’m not doing it for people. I’m doing it for me, my health. For my kids to have a mom who can play with them.

I need to stop thinking about others and seeking others approval and think about why I’m really doing this.

Kinda bad thing happened though yesterday. I barely ate – which is probably why all I can think about is food today (then again, I am PMSing). So all in not a bad day.

So then today. It was low key and relaxing. I was unable to finish my Slim in 6 video (the ramp it up one)…the humidity is a killer on my knee.

But I took the kids out for a walk after letting them play in the playground for a bit. It was nice until baby girl face planted during our walk. She was fine, just a couple of scratches. Thing was she asked me to hold her for a bit, I wanted to keep walking so I put her on my hip and kept walking, without thinking about it. Heres the thing – last year? I wouldn’t be able to do that for as long as I did. It felt great to be a mom…a real mom.

 

Goals…

Current weight: 301

Goal weight: 200 – I’m reaching for it but honestly I’ll be happy with anything below 230

Dietary plans: counting calories and low carb/low fat diet; not eating after dinner, working out on an empty stomach

Workout plan: walking, exercise bicycle, yoga, and Slim in 6 program

Reason for: to be healthy and happy and there for my kids

 

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