I’m gonna break. Tomorrow is the move and all I can see is my mom not helping (health reasons) and the amount of crap that still needs to be done.

Like Walker says, I’m “brimming” with tears. On the verge of going into the deep end. My mom keeps saying trust God, but I am. I can’t control this just yet. I wish she would realize that. 

But I’m off track, I ate so good today! You would’ve been so proud. Well you should be now cause I’m telling ya. I only ate 1600 or so calories and I burned  3300. And I did over 12,000 steps without even exercising. Imagine if I had gotten up early to do my normal 1h30m walk. No that doesn’t change my mind about sleeping in tomorrow. I need my sleep I’m in for a stressful coupla days with the kids adjusting and what not.

and Yes I’m writing this on my phone. Shoo after the day I had, I can’t imagine Anyone wanting to move from the bed to the computer. 

I don’t care who you are you would be drained. Though the antipsychotics don’t help. 

Anyways what was I saying….food. I had a protein smoothie for breakfast, a 6in sub and chips from subways and two slices of thin pizza. 

For a stressful day not too shabby eh?

Here’s hoping tomorrow is just as good.

Sorry for the scatterbrained type post. Like I said my anxiety has got me all mixed up.


Current weight: 306 – I should update that but I don’t have a scale

Goal weight: 230

Dietary plans: counting calorie 

Workout plan: walking

Reason for: to be healthy and happy and there for my kids