im failing. 

I was working out and evading at the same time. 

Yeah, we’re moving next week and I don’t know if I said that. But now you know. So therefore I’m stressed beyond belief.

Which of course leads to stress eating. I only had popcorn, but now I need to walk an extra 30 mins to make up for that. Man, it’s been bad. Not the eating – the emotions. My pdoc gave me extra risperidone to help with this but I feel like it’s not enough.

I wanna self medicate … With food.

I had to drive to get more boxes. It was like 945 am….I was fighting myself to not pull into the Burger King, and order everything on the menu. Oh that sounds so good right now.

I love fried food. Yummmm…..

What was I taking about? I don’t know.

I’m having a bad day and all I want to do is eat. I need something to do to distract me. More packing.

That sounds good right?


Current weight: 306

Goal weight: 230

Dietary plans: counting calories

Workout plan: walking

Reason for: to be healthy and happy and there for my kids