if you don’t know bipolar disorder is a mix of things. Depression, mania, anxiety, and so on. 

Each disorder is different from the other…that has to do with each person being different. Shocking I know. I don’t know what I want to say. I’m going through a bout of depression, I also call it the evil magentas. Cause when you go through it, it’s more than merely sadness.

It’s an emptiness, a soul sucking…can’t breathe because it hurts too much emptiness that doesn’t go away until you do something. Anything you do though, is nothing. Meaning you can’t bring yourself to do anything but hide.
Hide in food, hide behide a computer, hide behind the TV – hide in anything to not recognize that your soul has been torn from your body.

So how can anyone survive on this life? They can’t, that’s why we need our friends and loved ones to just be open and loving. We need someone to talk to that won’t tell us what we need to do to get out of “this funk” we’ve apparently put ourselves in from hiding from the world “too much”. 

I don’t know how to end this so love you guys hope you have a great weekend.

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