Its been several days since I’ve stopped the Brinntelix.

I’m still being really creative and awesome.

I want to say thats just me being me – but what if it isnt? what if its me being manic still?

I hate that I cant tell.

I started a devotional for those who suffer from mental illnesses and I post a devotional daily ( I came up with the idea while manic…but I still come up with ideas now. Am I still manic?

I hate not understanding this disease.

Sorry for being so down….I guess you can see I’m crashing a bit. i dont know.

I just want to be left alone and I cant be. I cant be me….sitting on the couch pushing out the world, licking my wounds. I hafta be the me that everyone expects of me. Super Jessica.

What if she cant make it?