something very dumb. the smart comes later

I forgot to take all my meds yesterday. I am in hell.

I’ve been in the bathroom all day yesterday (Why it didnt hit me yesterday I dont know); I’ve been a monster to the kids today so far (and its only 9am – how horrible am I?) and I cant think of a third thing.

Last night was a blur but I think I told the husband that I hated him …. or at least I made him believe that I hated him …. or something. I don’t know. All I want to do is slip under the covers and cry.

…….yup just had another conversation with him and I did it again.

I’m just not gonna talk today. Do you think thats possible? Wait….starting to have a panic attack.

Ugh…but wait. I forgot. Heres the smart: the positive in all this. I finally registered for my first Out of Darkness Walk! 

So far I’ve only raised $25; but if you see to the right….the sidebar? Ahem…all the way up top.

I’m hoping you guys can help me.


I wanna raise $1000 for the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention walk. Please can you help financially? Any amount will do to help such a great cause that has helped so many people choose life instead of death.

Any contribution will help the work of AFSP, and all donations are 100% tax deductible.

Donating online is safe and easy! To make an online donation please click the “Support Jessica” button on this page.

Thanks ahead of time for any gift you give and in return for every $200 raised, I promise to offer a video of me doing something absolutely ridiculous. Just cant think of it – cause well, I miss my meds and apparently they hold the secret to my brain power.