Here we go….The doctor put me on lithium.

Yeah I’m just gonna pause there for effect.

Lithium. For those who don’t know it’s to take away the mania in bipolar patients.

I’ve always reacted quickly to medicines, so yeah it’s already affecting me. The doctor said once it gets rid of the mania what will be left is just the depression. Now whether it’s depression because of my life situation or because I woke up that way – apparently that’s what we’ll find out next time. Or whatever.

Today, It’s because I woke up that way, though my mind is still mush….I think. I don’t know. I don’t care.

I just wish I could stay in bed all day and hide from life.

I miss my mania….or do I? Man in such a mess right now. I hate not knowing