I don’t know what to write.

I’m a ball of emotion right now.

I yelled at my kids for no reason. Totally scared them.

I yelled at my husband. Accused him yet again for cheating. No I have no grounds – just the crazy messing with my brain.

I just don’t know anything anymore.

Why do I even try?

Well I’ll tell ya why.


That’s why. Cause God is there, holding not only my hand – but the hands of my family. And if you think: “how could you say that Jess? How could God understand what I’m going through?”


“…a pierced hand…..knows the feeling of pain…”

God knows.