No. I’m not looking for any fake sympathy from people I don’t know.

I just wanna vent.

I spent time around a person today – arguably the reason for my obsessive strive for perfection – it made me think how much I sucked.

So yea this is probably my OCD talking – but still. I’m a horrible mother. How does my daughter not know her alphabets yet? So what if she can recognize them?

How come my son won’t pee on the friggin potty?!?!?! What am I doing wrong?! I know it’s me. I mean it has to be me. What else could it be?

Why does this homeschooling hafta be so hard and why can’t people respect that? Am I that lazy that people think I don’t do enough? Do I do enough? I mean how much am I supposed to be doing?

I looked at the book for kindergarteners and the boy knows most of that stuff so I guess I’m on the right path – but still I could be doing something.

I need to. I don’t know.

I just know right now? I’m feel like I’m failing greatly.