I’m tired. I’m having a moment. Please bear with me. I’m suffering from a bad case of the hiccups, and my body is following w jello like submission…please pardon the typos.

I can’t catch them all.

I was mellow yellow – all chill and starting to feel better. I saw my new therapist, got my meds upped by Dr. H, I thought I was on the mend.

Dude, seriously the worst case of depression I’ve had in a while. Like been feeling the evil magentas since about October. Sure I would have a coupla good days here or there – but mainly evilly and magenta-ey.

So ummm……I totally forgot what I was saying. Dangit.

Stinking kid – this time not mine – playing basketball with no hoop.

My brain hurts. My hiccups won’t stop. My cousin is here for a visit with her son. All I can think about though is how……DANGIT!

I don’t even know what I’m thinking. I wish I was me again. All funny and beautiful and elegant – instead there’s this evil clown sitting in my spot taking over my life.

I really hate clowns.

I’m just having a bad day. Thought I was getting better – seeing the light at the end of the tunnel.

Nope. My evil magenta is here still, being loud – rude – obnoxious – ugly – just all around terrible.

When will this terrifying merry go round end?

Some positive happened! I read this bible verse:

You have hedged me behind and before, And laid Your hand upon me. (Psalms 139:5 NKJV)

I cried when I read that.

God has me so protected, He must really love me

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