I almost did something stupid.

Something selfish.

I am was suffering greatly from a deep episode of the evil magentas; I wasn’t thinking.

But I didn’t.

My kids came into my thoughts; I told my family and my doctor. I am going to see a therapist soon, I have stronger meds – I am getting help.

My husband made me promise not to be selfish and stupid again. I made the promise, fully expecting to go back on my word.

I continued on with life. My kids are still sick, so we are still on lockdown. It’s pouring rain so my mood didn’t lighten – until I watched this guy.

Ken Davis. He’s a Christian stand up comedian. His act is called Fully Alive. Watch it, it’s hysterical

The last words of the act? “Live, for Gods sake LIVE!”

I cried my eyes out. I read the bible w my mom (as we do a normal bible study weekly): O Lord, You brought my soul up from the grave; You have kept me alive, that I should not go down to the pit. (Psalms 30:3 NKJV)

God used him to speak to me – I will live.