Having a moment.

A moment where every loud playful scream, every playful slap of my kids.

Every touch of my kids. Shifting themselves three-freaking-thousand times in my lap.

My daughter running away from me and running toward me, just to slap her hands in my chest.

My son screaming for superwhy while spinning in my lap.

I just freaking can’t take it!

It makes my heart beat faster, my mood to get…grumpier. It’s called overstimulation…I think.

I don’t know.

All I know is all I want to do is stab my finger or bite my lip really hard. Why? To keep from screaming at my beautiful kids for doing what kids do.

I just want to break something. I just want to scream!

God.

I hate being like this.

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