And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.
A coupla weeks ago I went to a bible study and this was one of the verses we studied on.
It hit me like a brick wall.
I almost bursted out in tears right there. God spoke to me. Ya know? If you are a Christian and you don’t know what I’m talking about…you are doing it wrong.
If you aren’t a Christian – well, sometimes in life you have a question. Like I have had these same questions: “God why did you allow this to happen to me? Why do I have bipolar while everyone else recovered from their postpartum depression? Its not fair that my kids don’t get a normal mom. Why would you do this to my kids God?”
Then, after having those thoughts – I figured the problem was me. God gave me this mental illness as a punishment. I mean I couldn’t blame God for doing that – did you notice the bitter attitude in my last paragraph? Shoo, I would give me bipolar too.
I kept thinking, I was given bipolar because I didn’t trust God enough or something.
But you see, God doesn’t work that way. That’s why this verse hit me so hard.
God uses peoples infirmaties to show His power to others. For example? John 9. Jesus and his disciples passed by a man that was blind from birth. Back then if you had some sorta infirmity from birth? They believed it was because God was punishing someone in the family.
Well, in John 9, Jesus and his disciples pass by the blind man. The disciples wanting to learn more of God ask Jesus: so – this man was born blind. Who was the knucklehead who sinned? This fool or his parents? yeah…I might be paraphrasing just a bit.
This man was born blind, so that later in life he could bring glory to God’s name.
Okay….so how does that apply to me as I was not born crazy?
Well, I’ve been on a journey and on this journey of life (man, that is just so poetic it made me stop), I’ve made some choices. I mean we do have free will right?
I was trying to do things on my terms. I was trying to fix things. I was trying to be the everything that everyone needed. I was not at all trying to rely on God and His power and grace. Some people (like me) are extremely hard headed and God needs to knock them off their stinkin feet with something (like an illness or a death or an ailment) and say: “Hey (insert your name here), I’m here waiting for you to ask for help. I’m waiting for you to let me in.” And once you let Him in – wow.
Once I let God in & let Him take over; He then has given me the grace to endure. Which has brought glory to His name, as others have seen how God has been working in my life.
Now, I’m not saying that this applies to every single person. Nit every person has to go through that. No, I’m saying that was me.
What about you?